I've been a quiet blogger lately. Partly because I've been out visiting B for the past week and was low on down-time, but also partly because I'm super stressed about what our life will hold post-wedding, and I've been having a hard time putting my fears into words.
As I've mentioned, B is a classical singer and is currently getting his Masters at the University of Michigan. He will graduate at the end of this month, and I'm incredibly proud of him. He works so hard at what he does, and he deserves every honor and accolade that comes his way. The next stage of his career will involve a post-graduate certification for performers, essentially like a finishing program that will prepare him for the performance world, and the screening process has involved auditions at various programs around the country.
As of right now he hasn't heard back from all of his auditions, meaning we still don't know where we will be living after we get married. He has a very lucrative offer from one program, but has yet to hear back from his top choice. It's an incredibly stressful situation, and it's started to make me lose steam when it comes to wedding planning. Thinking about the wedding only reminds me that, while my life for the next four months is all planned out, I have no idea what will be happening in the days, weeks and months that will follow.
The future - our future - is something I've been waiting to begin for a long, long time, and I can't wait to start the next chapter of our life together. In fact, it's not the moving away or the separation from my family that has me worried. I'm ready for this. And as much as I love South Dakota, I'm excited for a change of scenery. It's just the uncertainty that gets me.
The unscripted life is a difficult adjustment for this control freak, and I'm counting down the hours until I can start planning again: applying for jobs, looking for an apartment, and all the other grown-up stuff that goes along with relocating. I'm excited, terrified, impatient and anxious all at the same time. I don't expect the changes to be easy, but I know that as long as we're (finally) together, we'll make it. And that's all I can hope for.
Are you facing a big change after your wedding? How are you handling the stress?
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